Why this week?

Damn I am so tired-- I have to restart my project-- turns out my "idea" of going from the total economic procedure of Japan down to the people of Japan and how they're affected by it isn't enough to specific enough according to my instructor's critique... fuck- FINE! I will start over. I just have to consider what I want to do really with this damned project.

At least the interview I have thus far isn't useless, and i missed my interview today with Taka because I got up pretty late because I was talking with my sister the night prior... I'll get into that later. I do not need stress from home- my dad's drinking, my brother's stubbornness and my mom asking me to do drawings for her which takes me hours to do really fine detail, but in the end, she just colors over it with a marker... really?!

Fine- I am just crabby at this time, my hair isn't the way I want- I will have to restyle it and such to give it the look I wanted... good thing I was wearing a hoodie.

I missed my sister, she wants me to change servers from Carbuncle to Bismark, I will do my best for that. She's always fun to hang around with and she does treat me like a little brother in a good way.

I've procrastinated so much on where I will go after graduation, but I just don't have too much motivation at this time for anything scholastic-- maybe because I am a senior and I don't feel I need to put too much effort everything I do.

I want a cigarette so bad but I haven't had one in months, and I have to save money because a friend of mine who is in Japan with the studying program is going to come back with some items I requested, and I must get that money to him.

Just too much is troubling me at this time and I am not sure what to do with every little thing that occurs...