Stalemate

Getting pretty bored around this time of year. Not much to door look forward to. Employment becomes annoying and gaming just doesn't hold my interest. I think I am in one of my pessimistic moods. I am not sure what to think of a lot of things bu I am just waiting for this 'dude-period' to pass over. I keep my emotions in check but when it comes to attempt to vent-- I cannot find anyone to vent to. Either people are not the type to talk to or they are missing in action.

Ever get that feeling where you're tense about a specific matter and you cannot find anyone to talk about it with?

Here's an example; I am angry about being unemployed with a college degree. I cannot talk to Richard, Brandon or Andrew about... its simple, they do not look at a college degree as an accomplishment. They think they if you have a college degree you shouldn't get paid more or even think about asking for higher pay is not appropriate.

I am not sure what I want-- everything seems temporary and nothing that would stimulate me to the point of not having a desire to blow my brains out later.

Some would say I am being bitchy, but I am just... eh... bored... I need to find something or I am going to lose my mind. Maybe I am just mad to see that some people who hardly work for anything has a higher sense of satisfaction than me. Like my friends/family the Walkers, they are currently doing trips every week and always have something planned. It kills me to see that. I dunno, maybe I should not think about it.

I just need a good highlight right about now. Something to take my mind off of it.

Music:

Deliver Us - In Flames
Episode 666 - In Flames
Satellites and Astronauts - In Flames