Am I losing it?

I've been having stress pains since I have tobe pretty much obedient and keep my head down at work when someone else makes a mistake at work and I am the one to have to pay for it... I have learned one thing and its pretty critical: NEVER BE AN INTERN

You do not get the pat on the back if you succeed but you're instantly found for the blame... ugh I hate wearing my hair back and placing this facade of a personality in plain view. It irritates me to no end honestly- but it pays the bills.

At least I got to see two girls kiss at the bus stop, I mean it was out of the ordinary and I thought it was karma paying me back for giving this... obviously drugged up woman who was pregnant a couple of bucks for food.

Man I need to find an outlet, may even take time this weekend to do something for myself. Not handing any cash to my mom this friday, currently, its 700 dollars. I am going to go to Seattle and head into Uwaijimaya. Yep! Gonna buy a couple of books and come home late. Gonna take the bus since its much easier. Hopefully I won't fold with my friends begging me to hang out with them. I don't mind at all I just want to see if I can get rid of this stress without any distractions or being made fun at... just a little tired of the same old already.

And lastly, I am having a hard time trusting girls since they don't tell the truth-- well the lie hasn't come out yet, but I am learning to read body language... a note for those who wish to better their ability to do that: don't trust them in the place, watch their movements, listen to their speech, their fluency, etc. etc. make them provide you with a reason to trust them.

Off to bed I go~