Story writing isn't really one of my fortes... well why do I say that? I have a blog! lol, pretty much its for those who do not wish to write in a great detail or manner of proper structure-- I don't feel obligated, although the only thing that kind of pokes me is the fact that there is an intense use of the word "I" ... really- go back and read my other posts and find out how many times I have posted that word. I don't want to find myself not using it since its a first-person perspective blog and anything I say can be written as I please.
My sleep schedule is going to be so messed up since I have been here with the guys, we pretty much do what ever we please and not worry about sleeping. So yeah- I woke up today at 9 something... gonna be hard to shift for those hours, but I will do it somehow, someway or at least some energy drinks to prepare me for the sucky week that is going to come up. Why? Training- cause of Liz and Maria fucking up and I have to learn everything again.
I have goals for now but I have to consider which are quite possible in the now with everything so messed up in the economy... for example, I like the job I have but will this experience really get me anything in the world or is just to put a little bit of money in my pocket? Well- what I think it is is saying that I have some money in my pocket, nothing more. When I go to an employer, they may think I am not physically fit or anything and just considered to be a person who is good at numbers. I do want to work on aircraft but there is a lot that I am thinking that may prevent me even though I want to cover my ass.
I am honestly very hesitant now in my life than I have ever been. I don't have much desire for anything since the things I want are too far out of my reach... I am not being negative but just the idea and concept of reality sets in... from childhood dreams to an adult's reality.
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