Don't hold your breath

Sitting in my mother's shop after getting my hair permed some and nowI am thinking to myself... what am I thinking about? I am tired of being weak-- in personality and actual physical strength... I cannot seem to win over people so easily and I am sick of having to be so... petty in the eyes of others;at home, work even amongst my friends. I really need a change here but what... I am open to suggestions of any kind.